'I wouldn’t wish my year on my worst enemy,' says Kelsey Parker
28.03.2023 - 10:01
/ ok.co.uk
Mum-of-two Kelsey Parker believes she's currently going through the toughest stage of the grieving process a year after losing her The Wanted singer husband Tom Parker to cancer. Looking back on the last 12 months, Kelsey, 33, who is mum to daughter Aurelia, three, and son Bodhi, two, says she'll "take all the help I can get in battling through this". And having just recovered from a 24-hour sickness bug, she admits the loneliness is starting to hit her hard.
"It’s being ill and not having that extra support of Tom going, ‘Don’t worry, babe, I’ll sort you out!’" she says, doing a great impersonation of his Bolton accent. "Tom would have helped me. I just feel like it’s horrible for me because I have to rely on everyone else.
I wouldn’t wish upon my worst enemy what we’ve had to live through this last year." We ask when she feels at her lowest since Tom said goodbye on 30 March 2022 from St Christopher's Hospice in London, and Kelsey admits it’s often in the middle of the night. "If I wake up and I think of him, it takes me ages to get back to sleep," she says. "And it’s just the constant waking up and him not being there.
You can get your head around the occasions like my birthday and the kids’ birthdays. "I can prepare myself, thinking, ‘He’s not going to be here.’ But it could just be a casual Wednesday when I wake up and think, ‘Oh my God, he’s not here any more.’" There’s a long-held belief that time is a healer, but for Kelsey it feels like the permanence of the situation has hit her more as time goes on. "My heart is hurting and it aches for him," she says sadly.
"You miss the humour, you miss the cuddles, you miss the intimacy. I just miss everything that we shared. "I looked back at his Instagram the other night
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